DOING LAUNDRY

I have to thank everyone who wrote me when I had thoughts of making my journal private.  I received so many emails I could not believe it.  I had no idea that my modest writing inspired so many people.  Your emails in turn inspired me.  Your emails brought me back to myself.  For that I am grateful.  For that I am writing again.  Writing for me........ writing for you.........

I'm happy today.  That's not to say that my body is not feeling the usual pain and suffering it always does.  But for some reason I am happy.  Oh let me tell you I am not complaining one bit. 

Today I managed to get the majority of the laundry done.  Yes, it took me all day long.  Yes, I had to lay down and rest in between loads.  I had to sit on the steps and rest because I broke out in a sweat and got short of breath and began to shake.  So I stopped and rested.  But I did it.  Instead of focusing on my limitations I concentrated on the little I accomplished today.  Maybe tomorrow I will clean the bathroom.

Spoke to my attorney about my Social Security appeal today.  She is preparing the paperwork for me to sign.  I was denied on my first application last month.  It took Social Security six months to decide to deny me.    Okay so now I am appealing.  My attorney is doing all the work this time.  I don't have the energy to do it.  But, more importantly I don't have the skills anymore to do it.  They know what to do.

The River (Garth Brooks)

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And a dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores

I will sail my vessel
Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try

So I will sail my vessel
Til the river runs dryToo many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
Has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance the tide...yes

And there's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll tke soome falls
But wit the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all...yes
Yes, I will sail my vessel 

Til the river runs dry
Til the river runs dry